I've Decided

I’ve decided...

Decided? Yes, its derived from decision

So what I mean I guess, is that I’ve decided..to well..make a decision

Well actually I’ve made many decisions in my life...one’s I can say I’m not too proud of...

Decisions that have torn me down, broken my spirit, extinguished my fire and strangled my will power

Decisions that made me weep, want to scream and never be seen

I had gotten to a point where I had let these decisions rule me and take over me

But I realized something had to change, or rather God whispered to me: seek me and your life will never be the same...

So what did I decide? Ya, I never got to explaining my decision

I’ve decided that I’m not going to be bound, wound and beaten by the things that this world throws at me

I’m not going to live my days worrying about things that don’t matter, or things that just are and cannot be changed

I’m not going to be consumed by negative thoughts and beliefs

Instead...I’ve decided I’m breaking free, seeking Him, the way the truth and the light

And because of this decision I’m breathing once again...laughing and singing, dancing and sprinting

Doesn’t mean I won’t have moments, where worry sets in and doubt tries to plant its seed

No one said life was perfect...But at the same time...

I’ve realized that it’s worth living and so with that

I’ve again decided that I’ll be strong and believe...

Believe in myself and what I’m capable of through my makers guidance

I’ve decided that my struggles weren’t meant to tear me down...but instead build me up...

I’ve decided they had purpose and because of them, I’m on the journey to becoming...

Becoming a strong woman, in body, mind and soul

I’ve decided to never again let anyone bring me down

I’ve decided to feel beautiful, and love and accept myself no matter what

I’ve decided that I can’t do any of this alone without God’s help

And I’ve decided that life’s a continuous journey and discovery...

So many decisions I’ve made, though I probably can’t list them all

And so I leave with this...

Simply that...

I’ve decided...