Relapse...

So, I've been struggling with an ED for a couple of months now. And let me tell you it hasnt been easy. The worst of it were the darkest times in my life. But I decided this past Feb (early in the month) that I would get on track to doing better. And the result? My life has improved by like 200% and I have God to thank for that. I went 2 weeks w/ proper eating then had an "episode". Luckily at that time I talked myself out of it. However just this past sunday I had another episode (so two weeks from the last episode) and then again I had one today. I'm kind of beginning to freak out because I really don't want to go back to the old me. I like my life now and I like eating healthy and feeeling healthy and living and breathing. God knows I don't want to be consumed by this disorder again... So what am I gonna do? Well, I pray. Stop, think, then get back up and try again and again. I'm not giving up!