Experiments

So, I'm kind of new in trying this sort of thing. This thing called blogging. Hahha whatever that is. To be honest, I've never tried it before, and frankly I've never really cared for the "thing". I've seen it is a waste of time, had passed my judgement before I had even attempted to try. Then again, I seem to do that for a lot things. I'm really not expecting any views or followers or anything like that. That's not my goal. It's just a mere experiment you know...?


And what on earth am I looking to get out of this? Nothing--why does everything always have to have a purpose? Why can't we just do things for the sake of doing them and not always search for some purpose...or how about I ask this question...what exactly is the purpose of having a purpose? Ever wondered that. Anyway, I'm just rambling. I tend to do that often. And because of it, no one really seems to listen. But I'll mention that later I guess. Let me be hypocritical here for a moment, since there might be those that may think, "Wtf this blog has no purpose...everything MUST have a purpose, or life cannot possibly go on!!" Well okay to those picky people who find that life may very well cease to exist if a things purpose is not defined...
Here it is:
Perhaps my attempted purpose to this blog is to ponder over my feelings. I have a lot of mixed feelings about issues in my life right now. And frankly don't know where to start. I won't get all Doctor Phil or anything but hey, whatever makes me sleep at night right? Or Perhaps my purpose is to finally claim that for once I stuck to something in my somewhat short 19 years on earth, or that for once I felt that in this little space on the God knows how big World Wide Web, this little segement that is so very insignificant and unoticed...like a fly on the wall.. I would perhaps find my peace, gather up some inner strength. Not be bombarded by what the world has to say, not worry about acting one way...Don't get me wrong, as much as I am religious and very do much believe in God, I am in no means trying to replace Him with this...I am merely human, one of the many of us that are constantly trying to wade through a turmoil of emotions...and boy don't I know I know about emotions...

Okay I've typed enough...I myself am beginning to put myself to sleep. Until another time, my fellow virtual comrades, or whatever cyperspace aliens loom around somewhere...

And voila...there you have it...my attempt at my first blog entry, OR in more complex terms, my attempt at finally discovering and declaring impossible beauty from wrestless pain.